Ainnur Insyirah: January 2015

Maroon 5 - Sugar

1/22/2015

I reallyyyyyyy loveeeee Maroon 5 new music video, Sugar!

Imagine that you are nervous during your wedding and all of a sudden BAMMMM!

There you are making that i-can't-believe-what-i'm-seeing-right-now face as soon as you see Maroon 5 performing live in front of you!

And the best part is, you will naturally let yourself loose with groovy dance and truly enjoy your wedding without feeling nervous. Haha

Emotionless

1/19/2015

Emotion has a very powerful influence on me.

These days I've been having this conflict with myself. I've been keeping it inside of me since last year and I just can't let it out.

It's painful and up until one point I can't stand it any longer, I cry.

I don't know who to turn to. It's not that I don't have any friends to talk to. But, they also have a hectic life.

I only tell God about my problem. Every time I'm hurt I ask Him to lessen this build up feelings inside of me.

I'm weak inside right now and emotionally unstable. But I hide it so well that no one notices it.

Guess I've succeeded that part.

I wonder what it would be like to have a heart that can turn off emotion easily. Or a heart that is numb where any situations won't affect how it feels.

I read this guide on how to be emotionless. Everything fits perfectly with my situation.

You see, when a situation hurts me, it will affect my life so badly. I can't think clearly, my judgement will be impaired and I'll be blaming myself.

Therefore, I am choosing to be emotionless.

I'm aiming for that.

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22 and Still Young

1/05/2015

Wow.

Time flies so fast. I still can't believe that I'm already 22 years old.

A year older but nah it's just a number. *trying to calm myself* pfttt..

There is nothing special about my birthday this year. I just sat at home and ate a lot. Surely, not a good start of 2015 I guess.

But I'm really thankful for those wishes that I received from family and friends. Those wishes really mean a lot to me. May God bless all of you.

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