If only I could turn back time I would do it in a heartbeat
But that would not happen
I have to confront the reality
I have to muster up my courage
Resisting this feeling is the best alternative I could get on with
I have to go against this weird feeling of mine

It's hard.
I admit that it is difficult to go against myself
At least, I try.

I wish I could disappear and re-appear into another world
Another world which is filled with happiness
Another world, where I belong.

Disappear. Disappear. Disappear.
If only I could.

-aiz-
12/12/13