Takut tapi mahu
Tapi ketakutan maha besar daripada kemahuan
Hati tak rela kena lanyak lagi

Orang cakap cuba
Cakap memang senang
Bukan aku tak mampu
Terlebih mampu aku boleh hulurkan
Tapi bila setiap kali bagi orang pijak

Apa cerita?
Itu pasal takut tapi mahu

-aiz-
18 Disember 2013

If only I could turn back time I would do it in a heartbeat
But that would not happen
I have to confront the reality
I have to muster up my courage
Resisting this feeling is the best alternative I could get on with
I have to go against this weird feeling of mine

It's hard.
I admit that it is difficult to go against myself
At least, I try.

I wish I could disappear and re-appear into another world
Another world which is filled with happiness
Another world, where I belong.

Disappear. Disappear. Disappear.
If only I could.

-aiz-
12/12/13