This is what my heart wants to tell you :

' Hey you. Do you want to hear some facts? But you don't have a choice. You have to listen anyway. Sorry. Do you know that you are the reason I'm happy? I've never felt happy like this before. I really hope that this thing between us is real. Because I'm done with disappoinment. I think God has given me a second chance to know a person like you and I don't want to let go of this. You're such a wonderful person. I would like to thank you for everything. It means the world to me to have you being there to make me happy. I don't know for how long you'd be waiting for me. And sometimes I'm scared that I'm going to lose you. But all I'm asking is time.  I know I'm too much to ask you for this. One year and half, and I'm all yours buddy. I hope you would still love me at that time. I want to make this work. And I know it will work if only we have faith in believing it. And yes, because I love you. '

One fine day, in N's room :

A : Bla bla bla and bla bla bla *spilling her heart out*

N :  Senyap kejap. Dengar dulu apa aku nak cakap. Aku tahu la kau A. Kau kalau dah sayang kau memang bagi hati kau sepenuhnya. Kau faham tak? Kau tak cari masalah tau. Tapi masalah yang cari kau. Dan bila benda tuh dtg, at the end of the day kau yang sakit.

A : Aku tahu. But now, aku dah dapat control. That's why la aku decide nak tunggu dan lihat. Kalau lepas aku grad, dia still tunggu aku, maknanya he's the one.

N : Suka hati kau la. Tapi kalau kau sakit nanti kau jangan menangis kat aku.

A :  *smiling*